A decade ago I used to post an e-journal named ‘drtGuru’ in support of entrepreneurs, but later I discontinued the posts due to the paucity of time with my increasing professional demands. Subsequently, I conceived ‘Prem’s World’ two years ago with a limited agenda to journal my experiences since my school days and posted the blogs consistently every Saturday. It was a great relief to me from my usual routine of dealing with legal matters, but in the process, a new hidden ability was discovered which led to the experiencing of my own self, inspecting every aspect of my mind, revealing both my rational and imprudent decisions of the past. In the beginning, the journals were of my experiences at different stages of my life, apart from tributes to some great personalities, but later on, the topics slowly migrated to human behaviour and psychology — areas that I was always penchant about. Then the genre moved to exploring the greater truth that shockingly revealed by analysis that I was the arsonist who was the main cause of all the twists and turns in my life. But I was also the firefighter who had doused the difficult times and succeeded spectacularly by daring all adversities.
My thesis confirmed that there were signs of progress and that I needed to further refine my decisions. It was because, every day, I find that I have faltered the previous day and yet I am unable to achieve the perfection that I always was as penchant about as in my profession where I drive it to the hilt, despite being deprived of the required time. However, I seize it from the other daily chores. I try to correct myself from such infirmities with candid observations of my own self for I am not the kind who hides my expression for I feel that if I do not speak the truth, I may not be morally correct. In the process, this practice was making adversaries of everyone around me. I remember that this was inherent in me that sprouted during my teenage years. My clients tolerate and take it as the sour pill mandatory for the cure of all their woes, for it is their faith reposed in the pervasive rescue strategies that I design as defense, brick by brick, to protect them and to provide reliefs. But I am unable to replicate the same on other social fronts. The thought occurred to me that if Chernobyl could resurrect itself today with all the greenery and natural habitats, despite the mammoth radiation caused due to a nuclear disaster in the year 1986 (contrary to the forecast that it would take 20,000 years), why cannot I? A human also being a natural species demonstrates the same by configuring my consciousness to its original form and regaining wisdom. I feel it is nothing but the influence of the emotional faculties in me that are subduing my wisdom.
I became cognizant that undoubtedly whoever is born is bound to suffer, only rejoicing in the comfort of intermittent happiness, as if it is permanent. The pessimists assume their sufferings are inflicted on them by other players in their life, an erroneous theory that I too believed until recently. I then realised that even though I am living in the age of extraordinary scientific achievements, I am depleted with the level of wisdom to attain intellectual integrity. In this connection, I preferred solitude to unwind all the knots and to organise my mental faculty, but it was also tarnished with the influence of extreme self-sympathy and the infirmities feasted on my consciousness. I realised that conscience is the King and, in its court, the adversaries are the emotions who prowl under the covers to influence the King’s decisions. It dawned on me that I too can reclaim my profound wisdom with the guidance of the great philosophers. Reclamation of the virgin mind is possible only by introspection for which isolation is necessary, allowing one’s mind to take charge and not surrender to its ministers — the infirm faculties, starting with the realisation that ‘nothing is permanent' except the philosophical truth. The cause of any suffering is nothing but lack of knowledge of the truth and I observed that those who claim that they are happy without achieving the philosophical mind or the intellectual integrity fail to realise that they are standing on a weak foundation. Every human has the quality of being penitent; remorse for wrongdoing, but what stops them from correcting their thoughts is that they keep away from understanding the reality. Solitude is essential for the reclamation of wisdom and taking up the process of flushing out effluent thoughts with the guidance of great philosophers.
Last month, despite having many subjects to post week after week every Saturday, I intentionally took a hiatus to review my own blogs that were already published. I realised that I had this insatiable quest in philosophy and to know the truth, and started exploring it by reading books of great philosophers. I found that intelligence without wisdom was futile and it is only inquiry into the truth through a philosophical mindset that leads to awakening or enlightenment. ‘Philosophy’ is an academic discipline that investigates the intelligibility of concepts by means of rational argument concerning their presuppositions, implications and interrelationships. In particular, the rational investigation of the nature and structure of reality which is also known as metaphysics, the resources and limits of knowledge called epistemology, finally leading to the principles and import of moral judgment — ethics. It is here that most intelligent people also fail. Philosophy is bold, powerful, passionate and demands intellectual integrity. I became aware that as long as I am bound by wants, both material and relationships I could never attain the intellectual integrity that I am now aiming for. The ultimate truth is that it is only after I conquer all the six enemies of the mind, freeing myself from the immoral stains, can I experience the unblemished mind.
I slowly became aware of the extraordinary capabilities of the mind. It is said that all the animal species in the world except man are born with the extraordinary ability to merge themselves with the colours and the elements of their surroundings without being conspicuous, for the purpose of hunting their prey or to save themselves from their predators. But nature has given humans a much superior gift of changing their entire surroundings to suit their own design — humans can design their life to their own taste and comfort. All animals have a brain but it is only humans who have the ability to think rationally with their consciousness.
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